settled family brizzly.

got up to let d/l then slept again. continued all family facebook's connect to brizzly after got up. also done with meebo. the grandma came over&clean house&cooked. baby gamed with his visiting cousin. i felt cozy with new work space&a bit tired now, after sorted portable suite.

claimed family brizzly.

read after returned home. gamed awhile with baby on notebook. fine tuned family blogger blogs, correct their feeds. claimed family accounts with brizzle, against harder day by day China surveillance. just settled down.

review my situation&immerse in God's love.

enjoy new work environment online, with all social im ready, at home in morning. idle in office, for the meaningless monitor shown his refusal my using his company wire. reviewed my waiting for my girl, my being blessed by God. time to goodbye to my current family, soon if comparing elation baby son brings me and his mom. seeing the tall girl likely in QRRS at noon. left office earlier to avoid the dirts the facing dog attempt to profane.

fine tuned my meebo, repair broken link with fb.

dozed in office in the morning. chat with office women. surfed in afternoon, reading, later adding facebook chat within family meebo. China surveillance let me give up after operated some lagging time online at home. gamed with baby in night. its mostly a sunny day.

post a blog for holy dream&family new cyberspace.

sorted portable suite in office. look forward American friend's help on my family new facebook profile's mobile verification but failed. strike a new blog entry for the peace&pleasure of game with baby these months. noticed the tall girl of QRRS walking alone under my office window seeing me when i leaned outside of window to see her clearer. post to family web publication channels after returned home. China surveillance likely blocking result in lagging traffic but finally got all posted. before dinner got Taiwanese email&verified both new facebook profile with their vanity urls. gamed with baby&complete the game "call of duty 4: modern war" since he returned. so nice a day.

golden Autumn in light show. Holy dream

these weeks a bit busy, for the freedom world offers so many invalueable stuff. in these weeks, my family sites continued to expand, now including delicious accounts, which now support yahoo account's automaitcally login; tumblr blogs, which so powerful while so fit; seesmic, a twitter client can help me bypass the deadly blocking of twitter from China surveillance; and tweet.im, an autoposting service binding with gtalk account. i also seeing family site expanding within demestically, including 139.com, an affiliate of the monoply company, China mobile, and dii.cn, a twitter clone with neat interface. since yesterday, i felt i should preserve family 2 new namespace, riveryog for me and warozhu for baby son, warren zhu, Hope of China and God of universe, with facebook, the best and largest social network. China surveillance likely blocking facebook's sms service within its sovereign, for i tried several mobiles, none can receive facebook's verifying code in sms. i tried to reach out a Taiwanese among my google contacts, but his mobile also can't receive my facebook's verifying code.

these weeks mostly sunny days. with God's beam, i like to fly at will. China surveillance blocking more and more famous sites, including google sites, goole apps, tumblr, hellotxt, posterous, and yahoo meme, but i was never daunted, each time i lose an open voice channel, i would try to compensate with new reach out to more brilliant western world sites. God's message never fade, or wind-gone, but populate springly. i enjoy seeing my future people voice here now, a missing treat for my loneliness i suffered so far in this eccentric corner of northeastern China. i enjoy the virtual team in God's shine, upon every directions of the globle.

its also mostly lightened days, with so many games. baby son made every free moment gamed on my new notebook with my companion, imersing in games like "frontline" or "call of duty". play games is my long time dream, esp. when i saw quite less informed persons also enjoy themselves a lot in games, esp. first person shotting. i always love to see the advanced applications of artifical intelligence, or complicate interactive between human and robot or machine system, like games. but previously i always engaged in stuff more concrete, like download, resource management, site building, learning, etc. but baby's invitation these days drew me into hot games so deep and so imersing, that i really felt the world of colorful and possible.

its a bright moment now, seeing sunshine over the trees parrel to office window. dog on facing desk biting heavily, as usual, and the dead roaming in the corridor. i enjoyed so many golden moments in my life. last night, i asked baby son to sleep alone me, he did after some time of play. in mid night, all of us, including his mother, emakingir, woke up, in God's set, to celebrate the love and glory. i just dreamed of a lonely pilot, who fight persistantly. God shown me what's manly and what's the ultimate hardness and grace a blessed can be. i again, after many times seen before in the end of holy dreams, the mightiest God, and the non-impossible.

yes, gays and dogs biting now around. killing them just a matter of seconds. i see my second wife, Masheng, from Japan, changed this morning my bank deposit book into a deposit card, i saw the wells of my family never plentier and stronger.

at noon i again saw the tall girl in QRRS, walking passed my office window. i sticked my head outside of the window, likely she noticed me. she is tall and fit, i hope God don't train more me harsh and coarse with loneliness and ever harder hopes in perished.

Ok, now, Omen, God, save my Empire, bring me my beloved.

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benzrad, me, proud dad, holding baby son, warren zhu, hope of China, for a shot by emakingir.

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a corner view of south park, near emakingir's house. baby playing his scooter with his mom's companion.

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bright beaming: baby son, warren zhu, in a lol.

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God shown me.

in mid night, i first dreamed of be friend with an retired pilot, who fight lonely&persistently. then God shown me the truth about being manly. baby&ema both woke up at the moment. i saw no other but God is my baby son.

posted yesterday's photos.claimed 2 new facebook profiles.

sorted family cyberspace assets in office. then post weekend's park tour to web album. got new needed warez to survive China harder surveillance. claimed 2 new facebook profile after returned home&customized them. tried to connect an im friend to bypass China blocking facebook sending verifying code to my cellphone but also failed, don't know who to blame, facebook or China surveillance. gamed with baby on notebook. ema cooked nice dinner&bought sweat dates, which i like best.

read&d/l&gamed.

read&cared d/l since got up. gamed a lot with baby. showered in late afternoon&a bit tired. gamed in night while ema watched TV series online. this morning dreamed of play, a crowd of students gathered to learn play in open air. then dreamed of kid brother&likely taught him a lesson.

late sleep in a bright morning.

last night gamed lately till after 10pm before went to bed. this morning sleepy. let d/l then slept again. now started to read even still sleepy.

family haunted outside&shot photos. gamed all night.

accompany baby&his mom haunted outside&shots photos. baby actively ask us to train him. gamed all night. chat with kid brother.

claimed family account with tweet.im.

read&let d/l since got up. gamed with baby on "call of duty 4: modern war". the grandma&baby's cousin arrived, lunch with mutton. baby gamed with his cousin on notebook. i registered family accounts with tweet.im, settled autopost to twitter via gmail within all gmails. enjoy peace of twitter's accessibility.

gamed.

read. gamed afer dinner with baby on notebook, finished a mission.

claimed family accounts with seesmic.

lingered at home till ema return from noon break, finished a d/l of fonts pack. lunch at home. sorted bookmarks in office. then visit heat service provider to hand in fee. claimed seesmic accounts after arrived home. these days seeing our web presence expanding&felt amazing.

read&attend d/l.

read since got up. attending d/l of games, with which i look up. dozed awhile in the mid. found d/l speed soars into 200KB/s! lingered home for a d/l ongoing&can't broke, otherwise had to repeat from start. clear quite some feeds in greader.

tried posting to yahoo meme via proxy but failed.

i launched as intended proxy, trying post to meme recent twits but failed like last time in office. its interface working, but posting lost in endless submiting status. also attempt to add google ad&feedburner to family wordpress blogs, autopost within my hellotxt, all failed. likely the proxy penetrated by China surveillance, the GFW.

dream of acrobats.

last night told baby when his mom listening that i will see him so close in 2 years. dream of hometown folks in a circus, 2 baby girls of my relatives in the dream, and painful loves. when i woke up, ema broght baby left for school. its a brilliant sunny day.

claimed family delicious.

read in the morning, after os restored&likely fix previous Internet problem. the launched to claim family frequent namespace with yahoo delicious, imported recent bookmarks. all done.

dream.

dreamed of a crew of QRRS, my once employer, an interpreter. dreamed the sex trade in urban, many Hunan rural girls join the city and fall into sex industry. their parents tried to visit them but blocked by the boss of sex trade.

gamed with baby last night. told him omens of revengeful demons around.

yesterday i saw quite some omens on the demons attempting revenge upon me, including the fat, the girl first time broke my heart, a Fang. told baby my anxiousness after he returned. played pc games with baby most of the night. this morning restored os for last night i was unable to surf for more than 2 hours. the new os now at once found a file infected. now i can download.

dozed in office. post recent photo of first snow to picasa.

finished family new tumblr blogs' customization in morning at home. felt gloomy on way to office, felt misery of ema, and meaninglessly of my personal life. dozed in office. read awhile, then restored my view of greater landscape. reviewed my situation when roam in office. seeing the tall girl several times these days. returned home earlier for its a gloomy day, and nothing attractive. baby son, my God, hurts me but it can't be other but a bliss. act on my own!

setup family new tumblr blogs.

customized family new tumblr blogs since last night, till now. done! so nice to see our web presence expanding.

claimed family accounts with tumblr.

the site, tumblr.com, blocked within China likely a long time, but i found its powerful. so this morning i launched to shift family blog space here. most of family frequent namespace settled here, i saw brighter sky over the landscape.

reconciled with baby&gamed together in night.

showered in public bathroom. surf&let d/l. China surveillance blocked by cut down all traffic for about half of an hour when i operate on my linkedin account. baby slept lengthily, cheered when woke up. reconciled with him&gamed "call of duty: modern war" in night. now its clear Chinese cop cut down my Internet access when i infringed their filtered content. it happened many times in these days.

refused baby again. he need lessons.

got up later ,for the evil grandma's visiting. baby ask for gaming soon, i admitted but later lost temper&let baby son cry. just the moment the demon, the granny, arrived again. baby later claimed gaming is boring&harmful when his mom returned from her school. i doubting leaving emakingir's house if baby don't need me. i intended leaving baby and his mom's house after he sleep in his own room for a year, after more independent from his mom's poisonous influence, which about when baby son turns 8 years old. i told baby my arrangement previously. i just want he grows healthier in such a shabby and even a bit abnormal family, for his mother's family so evil and poor-educated. all morning i spent alone on pc, let d/l and read tech news, while baby staying with the evil grandma in bedroom. baby need lessens, this is no doubt. i had to teach baby the glory of God, untouchable and incomparable. he had to never play God and his dad, the Son, with any other human, even his mother's family members, or any intimacy.

dream of Obama, President of America.

last night view a picasa album which includes Obama's photos. dreamed of he&his family in his election, main on a beach. dream his election team includes many Chinese groups' support. dreamed i was challenged.

try to got download under China surveillance. gamed&read.

gamed twice with baby on notebook, completed "frontline". tried new means to download new game "flashpoint 2", amid notebook blue screen twice. read in night. baby got rebuff on asking gaming&at a loss.

dreamed of sally. it

dreamed of sally. it drizzled last night. ema join her school, i with baby at home. praying for new life with my beloved.

dined out. gamed all night.

ema got angry&brought baby dining out. i stay awhile home, for the Internet cut down by China surveillance, i soon dined out. gamed with baby on notebook all night, succeeded many mission. just left a mission to complete the game "frontline".

Spirit hit me&breathe love.

ema join her school but let baby staying home. baby ask for game but rebuff, then watch TV&colorful ebook. the grandma&her niece arrived to clean house. in office the gay/dog seat sooner after my arrival&attempt to profane, as usual. i roamed in the corridor, reviewing my been blessed, solved in love, and love of God. dogs arround soon left near noon. i returned earlier, before 2pm&bought baby KFC food. ema abused me, i retort&cursed for my pc downloading when i left home was shut down, like the evil granny.

read&game.

read since returned home. gamed with baby son on notebook&succeeded a mission in "frontline: fuel of war". quite glad.

post a blog for baby's bath&my recent Internet access unstable.

sorted os. read awhile. post recent photos of baby bath to posterous, a blog entry for China surveillance turning stern&dooming. also blogged in baby's title. read awhile after noon. returned when the facing dog ready to profane. its now a bright day.

wrest with China surveillance.

its now golden season here in northeastern China. bright sunshine in most days, and warm&crisp air conveys the golden bliss. i enjoyed pc games more and more with baby son, who rightly a savvy gamer, and insatiable entertainment sitter. every night when i lay down on bed alone him and his mother, i just feel too precious a day it was. i hold his bear and smooth foot, and amazed by God's glory.

but now all things so bright. the China authority resolved to challenge the common sense. quite some lames supposed the tighten surveillance will loose after the special period of National Day march, but it was not the case in this year and this time. the loser broke the mind, doomed to farewell to its once appealing, doomed to separate China with the world, peaceful people with the docile. the Internet censorship turning more and more harsh and smooth most free mind and good wishes Chinese hold so far under the faked forged socialism.

these days my pc os was hacked, or my web traffic under arbitral filtering. my web traffic never overlap 90KB/s, since yesterday the grandma clean the house and i also at the moment refurnish my os with common software's update. in last 2 days i tried lots of way to make clear what's wrong with the lagging and sometimes unstable Internet traffic. but most of my works led lighter to the endeavor of hidden dark hand over my os and my account or audit or filter in my Internet ISP's router or network hardware. net neutral, a purpose pushing in US, a far cry and forever utopia for Chinese in Socialism dome, just like its doctorate died decades among the bloody red starred geopolitics. but i know world aligns to change, including the dying China mainland, as God promised me, as the Empire in my title and host from hundred years ago from my glorious ancestor. China determined to change, since the history of the world. the dying sin let to supervise the scary land in these years, was ordered to leave now. a brighter sky encompassing the land emerging from the dim and dark.

OK, its sunny now outside of my office. i was the blessed to own the vast land, China. i was testified to claim here again, as the theft of state nowadays frequent deaf due to their greediness.

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baby bathed at home in warm late Autumn

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baby watching his mom gaming and enjoy team gaming.

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Temporary while forever lasting pleasure of now

the vacation of China National Day and lunar Mid-Autumn Day, almost passed. baby son, warren zhu, and me, benzrad, enjoyed larger and newer games which can drive my new acer AS 4736G to its full load, beyond wilderness. i also made good use of time when i was left with baby alone when his mom attending her school, to let baby son know more God and the mission of our Royal of China. i also condemned his mother and her family a lot. also a lot of time wasted attending games' download, which very lagging. we just found the beauty of larger pc games, like "Frontline: fuel of war" and "call of duty: modern warfare", both larger than 4 GB, which cost me for 2 and more days to download from p2p. i tried "Frontline" with baby son, who also been attracted at once, but later baby son ditched me and follow his visiting uncle's playing with it, for the uncle more a veteran on games. he was asked to come over to break my intimate time with baby by baby's mother, who likely felt my talk and my critics with baby upon her when she absent.

these days in vacation really sometimes ignite my sex desire. i longing for my girls a lot. but i sure seeing God consoles me with our promised gathering with all my beloved in coming months. i saw God let me endure to lighten the coming elation of new life. i promise all my girls of my full heart, with full fruitful.

its a gloomy morning. i don't fear the spying eyes from China surveillance. i saw budding like spring rains, weak but insistent. i saw blessing of God like warmest and brightest sunshine, killing and healing. i saw my promised love like rains rampant and torrential.

 

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baby's work.

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my second notebook, her membership of my family since Aug 28th, 2009.

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an early full moon near lunar Mid-Autumn Day.

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claimed family accounts with waakee.com, a Chinese clone of digg.

read most time in afternoon while baby gamed on notebook with his uncle. later found a Chinese digg clone, waakee.com, at once claimed family frequent namespace, via google openid. sorted bookmark locally. ema bought ready food for baby from nearby restaurant&cooked me a hot pepper. we enjoy a bottle of beer. nice day!

dreamed of sex trader.

a bit restless in dawn. ema went to lavatory&i got up to let d/l, then continued to sleep. dream of a nuke party, where 2 female nuked to dance. then try to contact one of them when she follow a guy to his computer room. very longing for my girls and sex.

gamed&enjoyed.

got up later&let d/l. gamed with baby on notebook in "frontline". later tried newly got game "residential evil 5"&backup stuff to dvd. shot baby's painting&scissor's works for publish to his blogs.

gamed with baby on notebook.

play "frontline: fuel of war" with baby son&succeeded 1 mission. cared d/l all time. read in the night.

dozed&dream.

dream of seeing another Sun runs through the sky. talk it to sister but she doubt. later dream of a guard of vip, or a scout. dozed very sound. ema now bring baby slept in bedroom.

got up earlier&let d

got up earlier&let d/l. backup some stuff to dvd. then gamed on notebook with baby&tried new games.

dream of love&son.

dream fall in love a girl then a man broke in&spread rumor of our love&baby. the baby the same age with me, both 1 year. some crowd sympathy to us, and breezed the baby. i felt burning throat in night for ate too much catfish the grandma cooked eariler for ema.

read&transport stuff.

read at noon. ema went shopping while baby slept. i cared d/l. cared baby after he got up. tried to move data among computers but failed many times, so prepared new file transportation method in most night.

retouch my public google maps.

its a sunny day since morning. i update my google panoramio with recent photos. retouched my google maps, adding more links within my public marks.baby gamed on notebook with his mom&later haunted outside. let d/l all time.