finished family new tumblr blogs' customization in morning at home. felt gloomy on way to office, felt misery of ema, and meaninglessly of my personal life. dozed in office. read awhile, then restored my view of greater landscape. reviewed my situation when roam in office. seeing the tall girl several times these days. returned home earlier for its a gloomy day, and nothing attractive. baby son, my God, hurts me but it can't be other but a bliss. act on my own!